THE DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDATE

I just went home and slept long.. the longest sleep ever.. grabe. that was a very good rest.

ON MY BIRTHDATE..

I now call it my BIRTHDAY. Literal reborn. Not expounding on this.. Not really expecting anything. But on the night of my shift, everybody .. even people who I don't expect to greet me.. lahat.. all were warm.
Nung morning, there was a surprise cake from my team. Aww..

My day happened in detail that its just so much hard to put everything into writing. I'll absolutely try.

The shift went on pretty smooth..after shift, met up with Jc and had lunch in Southmall. Afterwards, we went to St. James Parish in Alabang Vill. I kinda lost grip again of myself. Went home here afterwards and I really don't know what happened. Swear, di ko na nasundan. Nagmamadali na lang sha umalis.

T dropped by. I dropped high. Big time. I begged, asked, swam in tears, hated, cursed, begged.. begged.. begged.. "Ger.. let me go"  wla na akong nasabe.. of everything else.. ganun ganun lang..

Eggie came over. Went over at her place. I missed my bestfriend.

I'm still wandering. This probably must be the last time I should blog about this.

I woke up early again this morning. Sleep cycle have taken a big bite off me. Anyway, my day started when I went through my closet and found some cd's. Hehe.. I was playing MP3 cd's at dawn. I felt like going out for a walk so naglakad lang ako papuntang market and bumili lang ng maluluto for the family. When I got home, something told me to sweep the floor.. and clean the house, and clean the yard, and clean.. and clean.. run Forrest run!

For my friggin high last night, yes, I went to work for the sake of keeping sane.

Aftershift today, touched ako hinintay pa ko ni Eydie. For some reason, kailangan nya lang ng company. Hatid ko sha sa pad nya and played with Sheila's baby for a while. Around 1230, I went home na rin. Antok na ko e.

I was suppose to wait for T. Sabi nya dadaan daw sha e. Natulog muna ko.

Pat woke me up mga 540.. Pa-text daw kay Dad. The thing is, may dumaan na dalawang police guys to interview Dad re: his application for license to carry a firearm. Ugh! To make the long story short, Dad is not home.

#1. T, texted na di na raw sha makakadaan, something came up. Great.
#2. I called Ida, nasa Laguna daw sha, I asked for 2 minutes so I can cry over the phone.
#3. I went to Imus Police Station to have things settled. Last day na raw ngayon and kahit hintayin pa nila si Dad until 9pm. E nasa Antipolo nga sha e! Sometimes I hate abusing what I can do with things but again, I persuaded 4 officers to move the interview tomorrow morning before their shift. Ugh! No I didn't offer any bribe. I just shook their hands and a "thank you talaga.. da best ka kuya.." Blegh!
#4. An asshole driver hit my car on my way home. Gasgas si Dave on the rear right end and side mirror. Hit and run ang bwakanang shit.
#5. I went to the carwash station to see the damage.. again to no avail, the "washboys" offered to apply rubbing compound and take away the scratches for free. "Wala naman si boss ma'am e. Ako na bahala" I gave them tip of course for the great job.
#6. I called Jc over the landline. Tulog pa.

Still contemplating if I shoud go to work

First, Happy Birthdate kay Cholo. I know di nya to mababasa.. hehe.. gud thing.

So nasa Treats nanaman kami kanina..with some TL's. Honestly, I don't enjoy that past time. After work, tambay ka, inom, yosi, gossip and all. Hindi naman sa nagmamalinis ako pero tanghaling tapat, gagawin mo un? Wla ka pang tulog? I don't smoke and drink with them. Tambay lang talaga. Socializing. Ugh.. this is so not my idea of me. I still don't see the point. So uwe na by 1pm.

Member Services. I'm seriously thinking of applying to this new account na opening sa ofc. Altho I know its a still a long way for me, its still worth a shot. My idea of it is, why stay with the account I'm in now, Pharmacy Services, kung saan marami nang competition? Not that I'm not enjoying, pro go for the oportunity. Aim for the stars, land on the moon! nyahaha!

Yesterday, nasa SMBac ako with my sis. Sinamahan ko sha magpa-parlor. More of, iniwan ko sha dun sa loob. Met up with Jc cz andun lang din naman sha pakalat-kalat, nood Bewitched, nakatulog ako. hwehwehehe.. Afterwards, nagsunog lang ng oras nagttrip sa buong shopping mall. Bangag na kame pareho sa antok. Nakita pa nga namin mom ni Eg sa Perfect Pitch. Uwe na din agad.

Dumaan si T. I'm so pathetic.

**Inggit ako nung roadtrip nung saturday, pro feeling ko kung sumama pa ko nun, namatay na lang ako magisa sa pagod bago pumasok sa trabaho.

Yah.. I think na-mention ko nga yan sa profile ko sa Fster.. anyway.. I'll start from this time backwards.

This morning, Bart came over. Yup, sha ung may dala ng Brownies and Apple juice. We stayed lang sa receiving area sa terrace. Mainit sa loob e. Kwentuhan lang. I don't know how I lasted until 1pm in my state of being bangag sa antok. He showed me yung picture namin nung grad ball. haha! Which was like seven years ago. Parang si Fido Dido na may kasamang Isda. Nyahaha! For a while there, akala ko si Ramzen a.k.a. Sam ung kasama ko sa Pix. Thank God Bart looks the way he looks now. Whew! So there. As usual, N.R. si Dadi sa loob ng bahay. I would have loved it if he joined us outside para naman may ice breaker. Tulog na half of my brain.

Before that, Sunday shift, puro ka-wave ko lang kasama ko last night taking in calls. Man, I missed this pips. Almost laging idle last night e kaya ang kukulit kasama ng mga tao! Pumasok ako sa ofc na naka-chinelas lang, sando at jogging pants. Binawi ko na lang sa Nike na Jacket ni kuya. hehe.

Before before that..nothing much happened. Few hours lang ang rest time ko before the next shift e. I just went to ATC to meet Dennis and samahan lang sha magliwaliw. Bangag na ko sa antok.

What I haven't been blogging about is the fact that I really am so much of a mess right now. I don't want to cling on anything just for the sake of clinging. Tatayo ako mag-isa. Kaya ko to. I can say I'm sorry for a lot of things.. Pro let me just take it one at a time.

**I'm still fixing this friggin blog. I'll find time for this.**

Ya..I considered having a new blog site. Puno na kasi ung xanga and I hate it that people can't just leave comments if di sila xanga members. I'm still in the process of fixing this tho.. I woke up at 3 this morning and I can't hit the sack anymore. Sleep cycle already adopted with work.

Anyway, yesterday, I accompanied my Dad sa SM Dasma. He nearly changed his mind until I offered to drive. haha! Wise talaga tong si Dad.. Parinig lang pala un! So there.. Along the way, we got to discuss things again. I mostly love his company whenever I'm moderately down.

Ewan ko pro I feel na nahirapan shang i-mention yung 4 cans of beer na nakita nya sa garbage.. Pro his primary suspect is Dennis. My poor brother. Shempre amin na ko na sa akin ung basura na un. Sa ofc mate ko na sumabay. I felt ill lying about me drinking one of the cans.. I never really enjoyed drinking. I often battle with the idea na Para ano pa? la naman ako mapapala if uminom ako. Its a personal opinion about me drinking. Baka nga naman pra sa ibang tao e meh sense of satisfaction when they drink.

Moving on..

I don't know if its wise mentioning to Bart that I'm single. I'm still not blogging about whatever details there is about it.. too soon. With him drawing the conclusion na I'm nicer to him now, nice naman ako a.. I was just playing it safe before.

Di ako nag-overtime friday shift. (obviously kase andito ako at nagbblog) much as I want to be with the people in the ofc, tinamaan ako ng katamaran. nyahahaha! I feel almost guilty na this is the 2nd night na di ko nasundo si Eydie. Not to mention she called me again yesterday pra lang mangamusta. Not naman na its my responsibility pro I feel that she needs company. Wla pa lang sa powers ko ang pagiging recharged.

Later, I'm still weighing if sasama ako sa roadtrip with the usual roadtrip peers ko. I could really use the unwinding in Tagaytay. E kung di nga lang may shift ako tonight at isa't kalahating lakas ng bagyo e why not?!!

I wish totoo ung 300thousand and Toyota Altis! Charing!