I tried to go to work last night. After the wedding thing with my relatives. I ended up so tired. So damned tired. I just can't find rest. Where do I find that?! I viewed photos again from a distant yesterday. There she is. She looked so familiar and happy. Oh wait.. that was me. Ok so there was another set back last night. Ugh! Why is this just so hard?! I close my eyes and it happens all over again.. I was falling.. falling.. falling into nothingness and I hit my bed and I wake up over again.. then go back to the toss and turn cycle once more until I grow tired. I just had to run away once more. God damn it!