http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/ righthererightnow Tue, 23 Oct 2007 11:35:02 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2007. Arts Poetry Books http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/19.html Tue, 23 Oct 2007 19:33:53 GMT I'm constantly running away. Running away from things and I'm struggling to have my own private space. A place where I thought I can share, but sadly, I've created my own world. I'm near imploding. That pushed me to run from the 26th floor to the basement comfort room to find comfort. Not to whatever call of nature, but from the emotional distress that I've been nurturing. I just had to somehow, breakdown. I asked her last night if she sometimes makes me jealous on purpose. And she answered yes. With the lingering quesion "why?" - I chose to close the topic and try to pass out. Because... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=19 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/18.html Mon, 05 Jun 2006 09:10:53 GMT I can't sleep. We just came from a game of Tennis *Not actually playing yet - And I swear, I am tired. ... Each time I'd fall under your gaze, I lose track of time and my breathing becomes limited to almost not at all. It's a casual everyday spell you cast and it never fails to stupefy me. I try not to act like a fool and by doing so, I actually make a complete fool of myself. It's harsh and cruel but I surrender.. .. I tried to control this obsession but it only drives me crazy. I crave for the scent of your skin, the touch of your hand, I want to run my fingers through your hair... I... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=18 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/17.html Sun, 04 Jun 2006 14:18:21 GMT It's so convenient for this site to be just out here. Last night, I cried myself to sleep in her arms in the office. I was early, as usual because I don't bring my car anymore. There must be a good reason for that. I didn't know I was that upset. Now as a consolation, people who were promoted had to stay late in the office to wait for everybody to log out. I'm glad now that I didn't get the position, although it's a close cut. Talk about comfort, there I found rest in her arms. I need no words to explain. I just know she understood. I'm not sure if I'm now okay, I haven't been myself for... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=17 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/16.html Sat, 03 Jun 2006 09:59:58 GMT And she just left for home. It's crazy that I'm blogging here and there. Yep, she dropped by. Why? I was going nuts. I learned last night that I didn't get the position that I applied for. Not that I cared that much but a week or two of contemplation about it is insufferable. Plus, I didn't get the phone that I wanted. Oh well. The highlight of the event was, she reread this story that I used to write. Just for the heck of wanting to feel a little bit of jealousy. Jealous?! Why would anyone wants to feel that? Especially her? Maybe I won't be able to make her realize that all that I am... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=16 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/15.html Mon, 26 Sep 2005 23:45:15 GMT Last night's shift was a lazy shift. I planned to sleep my whole lunch break time. Upon closing my eyes.. I dreamt of something almost real. I can still hear each word ringing in my ear. We met up somewhere..Usap kami sa car. Galing sha somewhere.. binigyan nya ko ng apple. Ang goal nya, being there.. meeting me at 3 in the morning was just to see me.. and maybe steal a kiss.. Kaya lang.. takot sha because I might taste somebody else's kiss sa lips nya. Probably, the rightful better half. Everything is just so familiar.. But I was just so proud of me being so composed the whole... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=15 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/14.html Mon, 26 Sep 2005 23:21:52 GMT I was at a friend's debut last Saturday. Being a crazy day and all..the truth about the day is that I contemplated the whole morning if I should be lifting an effort for somebody. Nah what the hell.. I found myself taking a bath and rushing to the office. Gusto ko sha makita. Damnit. Went to Southmall, wasted the wholeday wasted. If its not just enough, Hinatak ko pa sha sa Debut sa Island Cove. Before that, dumaan muna kami sa bahay para I can take a quick shower. After dressing up fast, I got a hug and lam ko in that fracture of a minute, there was singing of "someday.. when I'm awfully... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=14 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/13.html Sun, 18 Sep 2005 20:53:05 GMT Yup. It was one hell of a yesterday. So napikon ako. I was at Jc's station yesterday. E sa gusto ko sha kasama ng break ko eh. Ang bata, nawili ata mambato ng Nerds na candy and mamalo ng unan. Had to cool off my rising level. Lumipat ako ng station malapit sa mga team ko. On the way home, I had to ease on the gas pedal. When I noticed the 120kph speed, need to focus on the driving instead. The news was, naasar si Joey sken. I'm not concerned na naasar yung gagong yon. Pakelam ko sa kanya. What crashed into my mind was, what is going on with me. This is a very familiar situation in... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=13 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/12.html Sat, 03 Sep 2005 03:33:49 GMT I tried to go to work last night. After the wedding thing with my relatives. I ended up so tired. So damned tired. I just can't find rest. Where do I find that?! I viewed photos again from a distant yesterday. There she is. She looked so familiar and happy. Oh wait.. that was me. Ok so there was another set back last night. Ugh! Why is this just so hard?! I close my eyes and it happens all over again.. I was falling.. falling.. falling into nothingness and I hit my bed and I wake up over again.. then go back to the toss and turn cycle once more until I grow tired. I just had to run away once... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=12 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/11.html Fri, 02 Sep 2005 15:58:32 GMT MONDAY I had a dream. There was a perfect guy that every girl is wishing for. Somebody to grow old with, somebody who will have a conversation with me. Somebody who will put up with my whines and all.. Somebody who will listen.. who will understand. There is just one problem. I am not looking for anybody at all. There was almost sex.. Nothing happened. Anxiety failure. So maybe he's just too nervous or he just loves me too much. However I put it.. I woke up. THE FOLLOWING DAYS Spent most of the week with Jc.. sa Change oil ni Dave, sa pagmo-mall, sa pag nood ng movie.. except for... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=11 http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/archive/10.html Sat, 27 Aug 2005 01:26:22 GMT On me thinking I woke up with my throat so itchy this morning. I was suppose to go to work but I just don't have the motivation to. And besides, I'm nearly expired. I didn't get much rest and sleep yesterday kasi paguwi dito, few hours lang, I had to prepare na going to the dinner/party in QC for the reunion chuva ng mga relatives ko sa Father's side. Weird nga e. Pinsan ko, batch ni Dadi.. Pamangkin ko.. er.. I think that is how we are related, batch ko.. and by Goodness.. Gwapito ang mokong. Ugh! On me with my past life Yah.. I still have communication with my former significant other.... (more) http://nonimitation.blogdrive.com/comments?id=10